..Dear John..

Sunday, July 17, 2011

My dearest John,

Your letter must have come from heaven as surely it has breathed hope in me and enliven my faith in love. There is so much I would like to say to you, the first and foremost is that, I can’t wait to finally meet you and behold the gift that I have so long been praying for. I have no doubt that you will be God’s best for me. Your coming into my life will be worth everything I went through. :)

I hope that wherever you maybe in the world right now know that someone is praying for you – your other half is right here in me. I just wonder how God's version of our love story would be. I believe it's going to be beyond my creative imagination. No one else can do it like He does. When that happens, I know that the universe will conspire to never let us be apart from each other again, ever.

I understand that I had to go through some pains so I would be a better partner to the one that’s ultimately for me – and that is you. And I promise I will also try my best to bring out the best in you while loving me. I know you aren’t perfect but you will be in my eyes. We will be best of friends more than lovers and that rest assured I will stand by you for the rest of our lives. I will be your strength as you will be the only light that I need to see when the world turns dark. I pray you will also love me and all of my flaws and blunders, including my proclivity to being the best in everything (I tend to be perfectionist especially when it comes to relationships). And oh, just a warning, I may get too sweet, I hope this won’t drive you crazy. (haha! if you really love me you will accept even this. just enjoy it.) Oh well, I could just imagine us going to mass together every Sunday and I’ll cook lunch for us at home afterwards. It will be a life of adventures together. ;)

Meanwhile, I will take my time to prepare myself so that when we finally meet I’d be the best person that God wills for you and we’ll both thank Him for the gift of each other, as you say. For now, I will keep on praying for you, my John. Please take care of yourself until I could take care of you myself. :)

Lovingly yours,

P.S. I know this will be my song for you. Ooops, just can't wait..  : ) 

The Love Letter..

I remember it was one of “those days" of dragging myself to work with my seemingly paralyzed limbs. When I got at the office I saw something at my desk - a letter was rolled up and held in place by a silver charm that had one word spelled out on it “BELIEVE”. For the first time in a few months, my face lit up and my heart leaped. And so I read….


Dear Love,

I know you’re hurting right now and I’m so sorry that I’m not there to put my arms around you and wipe those tears from your eyes. It’s more painful for me to see you in pain than to be in pain myself. And I have no choice. God says you have to go through this.

I will eventually find you though and when I do, I promise that you will never again shed a single tear. I promise to give back everything that you lost since he left you and give so much more. I will take care of you. Just be patient, my love, I will come when you are ready.

In the meantime, know that I am coming and let that be your strength. Also, remember that there are no bad experiences, just blessings in disguise. Someday we’ll both thank Him for this.


P.S. This song is for you. Listen carefully Sweetie.

(John is Juan read as the "One" in Filipino version)

A Letter to my 16-year-old Self

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Dear Little Me,

As I write you this letter, I am taken back to a time when you barely know anything important in life yet. I could feel your eagerness with your almost uncorrupted perception of love just as innocent as your age. You have the ardent passion about knowing and experiencing fully what life is about and all that’s into it.  Yet you seemed to be wiser than any 16-year-old person as you have already gone through a number of life-changing experiences in your early childhood years, sadly most of them painful ones. You will pass through more sharp turns and bumps as you head on to where I am now. But each trial you hurdle makes up to the strength of your character. After all in your later years, you will learn to value more the things that you worked hard for. I admire your perseverance to excel in everything you do. I understand it’s the only way you believe you can make your Papa proud and get yourself into a decent university as you want to help your widowed mother. That’s what I like about you the most – your determination to help your family someday. Don’t worry, I can tell you now – all your efforts would someday pay-off. And as you go up the stage each year to get your certificates/medals you have that voice in your heart – wishing your Papa were there to witness those moments. But just while you are smart in your academe you seemed to be so na├»ve yet about matters of the heart. Each day you spend long hours daydreaming about your so-called “prince”. You are blinded by the perfect idea of love. All you think about is having that someone who will fill that void your father’s lost left in your person. I can tell you’re enjoying the attention and admiration of boys your age as you strut around the school campus as if looking for some missing puzzle pieces you think will complete you. O darling, if I can only tell you now and spare you of the pain you’d have to go through in love to fully understand and appreciate it, believe me I would. Yes, you will meet a geek-looking, smart and sweet child trapped in a man’s body whom you will love more than you could love anyone else less than your Mom & Dad. You will build your dreams – your world around him. Your worth will rely on him so much that you will soon lose yourself in loving him. Everything I know about love now you’ll learn for the next 12 years. And just when you think everything will soon fall into place – your dream just shatters into pieces as you are left to mend a broken heart – a broken soul in you all by yourself. But do not worry my dear – you have a loving God and His love made you whole again – as the person that I am now.

If there is one thing you will learn best from that yet another traumatic experience is that (relating to a term used in your future job): “you are not a derivative whose value is derived from an underlying asset. You are that Valuable underlying Asset – You are worth more than what you were to him or to anyone else for that matter. Always believe in God’s love and His Bests.” For now, don’t be scared to love. Because I tell you – it was worth all the lessons and happiness you once felt anyway. Someday, you will also meet someone – who will love you as much as taking care of you for the rest of your life. – this I was told to believe so and still I utter the same prayers you have to these days. :)

Take care always,

Your 28-year-old self :)