Relationship Status: Waiting on God
I admit Waiting is not my most favorite thing to do in the world and Patience is not my inborn virtue.
I am impatient and impulsive most of the times. I want to have control over most aspects of my life. I panic and falter whenever I do not see things going my way. And I am fully aware of this flaw of mine. I feel that the Lord is teaching me to embrace this virtue fully in this "season of waiting".
More often, I miss the entire point of Letting Go and Letting God. While I pray and lift my right hand to Him in surrender of all that I desire, my other hand cannot just let go fully of my reliance on my own capacity to make things happen. Stubborn as I am, I hold onto my own idea of "the Best plan", which always fails me painfully.
Maybe I forget to acknowledge God's sovereignty over all the things in this world, over my tiny life. But as it is now, while I got a few questions running in my head, moments when I would wonder why things happened the way they did or what is taking so long for things to happen, I know that His hands are working through every aspect of my life. I just need to lift my 2 hands high in sweet surrender to His Will, His Impeccable Timing.
For now, I keep on praying, waiting and walking.