Letting God Take His Time since He is God Anyway

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Time and again, I have proven that I am the least patient person in the whole wide world. I DO NOT enjoy waiting, AT ALL. I mean, who does love to wait anyway? 

I always want to be in control of everything, to see clarity ahead, to have the answers NOW.

But I guess, there is one good point to raise here: Who am I waiting for? What am I waiting for?

If I was just waiting for some orders from my favorite fast food chain, O.K. well, then, I may have all the rights to go ballistic about not being served in 1 minute.

BUT... I am talking about God's plan here - waiting for THE GOD'S PLAN to unfold in my life.

Then that's another story certainly worth the wait. 

Why is God taking a long time answering my prayers?

(Often, it's those moments when I could imagine hearing crickets chirp or the owl shrieks, almost like saying with its big eyes rolling, "Oh Paleeaasee, Love! Not again!" LOL.)

I would again implore the heaven to send me the answers that I have been praying for, like 'Ahora Mismo'! And the cycle goes on and on.

Funny how I am always reminded of 4 things whenever I find myself itching to go ahead of God, wanting to immediately grab the things I desire for myself or annoying Him with my repetitive questions (though He loves me enough to not really be annoyed at me, that I know!): 

1. God loves me better than I can ever love myself;

2. God knows Best; 

3. God's Plans for me are Far Greater than the Grandest dreams I could ever imagine for myself; and

4. God's Best is Always worth waiting for!

After tensing myself against all unnecessary worries and anxieties, I'd ask myself, "Sooo, Love, will you settle for your kind of best or wait for God's Best? Then I would just smile and look up to Heaven in surrender, "O.K. Lord! You are God anyway. Please have Your way in my life. Take as much time as You need with me!" (Note to self: Repeat this in your head 1000 times! >.<)

"If We trust in the Lord, we won't be afraid to wait. We will not seek to grab for ourselves ahead of God's time out of fear that we might lose the best by waiting. God is well able to safeguard the best for us in every realm. When we grab impatiently, we invariably miss the Lord's best!" (quoted)

Here is an insightful talk from Fr. Mike that inspired this blog: 

Interior Freedom by Jacques Philippe

Sunday, January 8, 2017

I once attended a talk about the pursuit of one's vocation in life given by 2 brothers from St. Michael's Abbey. What resonated with me is the statement that one of them said which goes along this line:

....The only thing that God will bow down to is Human Will. Because He does not enforce Himself on you. That's how crazy He is with you. Jesus loves you as if you're the only person to ever exist....

And so this got me pondering about the power of Human Will. Yet often in my journey through life, I find myself seeking for God's will as if my path has already been predetermined for me and I, the pilgrim, implore His guidance over me as I walk my way home. To understand my point, it is imperative to state here that I personally believe in the power that is greater than I. 

With this, it begs the question: "Do I really have an absolute freedom over my life?"  

Thankfully, just about last year, I found some relevant answers to my profound curiosity about this aspect of my faith. A friend of mine introduced me to this book entitled "Interior Freedom". It was a great book that paved the way for me to understanding what it means to be truly free as a Christian. 

While I thumbed through each page, I could not help myself from writing down the points that stood out to me the most. Every line spoke to my soul. I definitely recommend reading the entire book. 

Here are some of my favorite lines from the book:

We find confinement unbearable, simply because we were created in the image of God, and we have within us an unquenchable need for the absolute and the infinite.

We have this great thirst for freedom because our most fundamental aspiration is for happiness; and we sense that there is no happiness without love, and no love without freedom.

Human beings were created for love, and they can only find happiness in loving and being loved. 

Only love, then, can satisfy us; and there is no love without freedom. The kind of love that is the result of constraint, or self-interest, or the mere satisfaction of a need does not deserve the name love. 

There is True love, and therefore happiness, only between people who freely yield possession of the self in order to give themselves to one another.

"You were within me, and I was outside myself, and sought you outside myself!" - St Augustine

Love, and only love, can overcome evil by good and draw good out of evil.

"Being free also means consenting to what we did not choose."

There is a paradoxical law of human life here "one cannot become truly free unless one accepts not always being free!
This means consenting to our personal limitations, our weaknesses, our powerlessness, this or that situation that life imposes on us, and so on. We find it difficult to do this, because we feel a natural revulsion for situations we cannot control. But the fact is that really makes us grow are precisely those we do not control.

"Love is so powerful in deeds that it is able to draw good out of everything, both the good and the bad that it finds in me" - St. Therese of Lisieux

We need to accept our limitations, but without ever resigning ourselves to mediocrity. We need to desire to change, but without ever refusing, even subconsciously, to recognize our limitations or accept ourselves.

The secret actually is very simple. It is to understand that we can only transform reality fruitfully if we accept it first. This also means having the humility to recognize that we cannot change ourselves by own efforts, but that all progress in the spiritual life, every victory over ourselves, is a gift of God's grace. We will not receive the grace to change unless we desire to; but to receive the grace that will transform us, we must "receive" ourselves--- to accept ourselves as we really are.

"Above all, never despise yourself. It is difficult to despise ourselves without offending God in us."

For a very long time I considered low self-esteem to be some kind of virtue. I had been warned so often against pride and conceit that I came to consider it a good thing to deprecate myself. But now I realize that the real sin is to deny God's first love for me, to ignore my original goodness. Because without claiming that first love and that original goodness for myself, I lose touch with my true self and embark on the destructive search among the wrong people and in the wrong places for what can only be found in the house of my Father.

If we have enough faith to believe Him capable of drawing good out of whatever befalls us, He will do so.

"This slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison" - St. Paul

"What ruins our soul is not what happens outside, but the echo that it awakens within us." - Christiane Singer

Projecting our fears into the future cuts us off from reality and prevents us from dealing with the present situations as we should. It saps our best energies.

If we try to live like that and deepen our relationship with God and our prayer life, so that we can perceive his presence within us and live as much as possible in communion with his indwelling, we shall discover something wonderful: the interior rhythm of grace that our life follows at its deepest level.

"I have created you without you, but not save you without you."

"What I'm not capable of doing by my own strength, I hope for from you, O my God. Not by virtue of my merits, because I have none, but by virtue of your mercy alone."

We are created to love. Whether we are or aren't aware of it, one of our deepest aspirations is to give ourselves to another. 

"We obtain from God as much as we hope for from him." - St Therese de Lisieux

Human beings are more than the sum of the good they can accomplish. They are children of God, whether they do good or cannot manage to do anything. Our Father in Heaven does not love us because of the good we do. He loves us for ourselves, because he has adopted us as his children forever.

"When you no longer believe in what you can do for God, continue believing  in what God can do for you." 

*Full credit to the author of the book, Jacques Philippe for the italicized lines above.